So Paterno makes me totally remember how much I do not like sports. And how much I love cheering. At the same time.
My argument for the former goes something like this... The God of competition, "being better" than someone/thing, the bragging, the ACTUAL sense of superiority a fan feels...which naturally leads to the sense of anger at losing. That roller coaster can be a blast, but at what point is 'winning' a moral authority in its own right?? It must be the easiest job in the world to work for JoePa, cuz CLEARLY those guys would do anything to keep their jobs for that moment, even if it meant going down in flames later. Literally.
But I love the structure of Sports, virtually any sanctioned competition intrigues me. I like the fake/real pressure depending on the sport, like car racing or chess, as it were...lol. The rules create Parity - it's why they play, bcuz either could ostensibly win. That's the beauty of sports to me, the Rules.
And the Administration and Coaching staff of Anywhere, USA... serve at the pleasure of their constituency, and by not protecting those children, they put themselves and the sorry excuse of not rocking the apple cart in juxtaposition to the people that pay them, the fans.
And, seriously, JoePa, did you just think to yourself in that signature rasp...well, now I've heard it all... when it was brought to you, and you passed it off to Admin? Didn't think a thing of it after that, eh? That says a lot about you.
Enjoy your retirement with your Great-grand children.
...
Weather is rainy today, but when I took the dogs out for a walk to get coffee, the sky was AWEsome with all these cool red and oranges fanning through the morning clouds...*need better camera* Duly noted..lol. But the Sun never piqued. Just a fantastic reminder. I have gotten a few 10-15 minutes in this month. : ) In some ways helping me to see things spiritually and in some ways pushing my bad thought habits right on out into the open...lol. Helpful and annoying. Off to work!
Cheers ~
This is my chronicle of life with Sungazing. I am a forty-something female. I would not have found SG unless I was looking for it. :) Thanks to all the mediums that have proceeded you.
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Friday, October 28, 2011
ASideBar: Laura Marling :D
"I still don't no why." "I should just leave you instead of deceive you, but I don't, night after night..." :D Umm...yeah...lol.
I might say that you present a convincing case for reincarnation, in my humble opinion. :)
Three albums into this talented young lady's career we have some pretty relevant data about her consistency, fortitude, precocity, sensuality, and lock-step lyrics that make for a rather organic voyeurism. "I'm not confessional", she has said in interviews, but we are...:)
Thanks Laura!
I might say that you present a convincing case for reincarnation, in my humble opinion. :)
Three albums into this talented young lady's career we have some pretty relevant data about her consistency, fortitude, precocity, sensuality, and lock-step lyrics that make for a rather organic voyeurism. "I'm not confessional", she has said in interviews, but we are...:)
Thanks Laura!
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Day 75 SUN!!
So the weather has continued to be awful...I have probably gotten about 30 total minutes in the last 6 weeks! Booooooo!
BUT, this morning I was able to get a solid 15 minutes in from my porch :D. That was awesome! The fact that the trees have lost about 75% of their leaves in my front yard definitely contributes. The other lovely new discovery has been that due to the shortened days...I was actually able to get about 5min of Sun SET last night. On a random walk with the dogs I looked up at the sun about 6:25 ish, and noticed that I could look almost directly at it. I ended up looking just about 3 or 4 degrees East and West of it and felt very comfortable. So it is occurring to me that I should be able to get some decent Sunset Sun in the next month or so.
It's just interesting to me that the quality of the Sun is so different now! Maybe it is b/c the weather totally interrupted my momentum, but it seems like the 'delicious' is still there...but not the vitamins that I sensed back in August. Maybe they will show up in the Sunset instead. That's what I am thinking. : )
Regardless, the urge to do it remains the same, and I still feel like my hormones... mood swings, aggravation, crankiness...have all taken a back seat. Before I started Sungazing, I can assure you I would periodically go through FITS of depression and aggravation...lol :P Oh yeah, that was GRRRReat. I thought to myself...wth?? I finally get to a place where I am comfortable with myself and my body turns on me?? Noooooooh. That's not possible.
My health and fitness have always ruled the roost. It has gotten me out of some pretty deep holes, ended bad relationships, and basically it has been the filter through which all of my other interests have been distilled. So, I thought, no way...lol... there has to be a mechanism for this. It is a litmus test to a certain degree, no?
Consequently, the first second I heard about Sungazing...rather, saw the documentary 'Eat the Sun'... it clicked. I thought, EXACTLY. Reading about it, and other ppl's Blogs, the science of the Eye and Pineal Gland, Photo-receptor activity, etc., confirmed a physiological process I thought reasonable. Now off to collect some empirical data...lol.
Here we are, 70+ days in and I feel like I have just scratched the surface of a tremendous adventure. I deeply aspire to be a better friend and co-worker; to recognize when I am stepping in it b/c of past learned behaviors, so I can CHANGE the way I do business when it becomes a dance instead of a dialogue. You're morphing or your dying they say. I believe that Sungazing is a process that achieves just that, new movement.
'Someday I will sit under the tree like Buddha showed us, summon the past and future, and vanquish them both.' _*_
Happy Saturday ! ~ Elle
BUT, this morning I was able to get a solid 15 minutes in from my porch :D. That was awesome! The fact that the trees have lost about 75% of their leaves in my front yard definitely contributes. The other lovely new discovery has been that due to the shortened days...I was actually able to get about 5min of Sun SET last night. On a random walk with the dogs I looked up at the sun about 6:25 ish, and noticed that I could look almost directly at it. I ended up looking just about 3 or 4 degrees East and West of it and felt very comfortable. So it is occurring to me that I should be able to get some decent Sunset Sun in the next month or so.
It's just interesting to me that the quality of the Sun is so different now! Maybe it is b/c the weather totally interrupted my momentum, but it seems like the 'delicious' is still there...but not the vitamins that I sensed back in August. Maybe they will show up in the Sunset instead. That's what I am thinking. : )
Regardless, the urge to do it remains the same, and I still feel like my hormones... mood swings, aggravation, crankiness...have all taken a back seat. Before I started Sungazing, I can assure you I would periodically go through FITS of depression and aggravation...lol :P Oh yeah, that was GRRRReat. I thought to myself...wth?? I finally get to a place where I am comfortable with myself and my body turns on me?? Noooooooh. That's not possible.
My health and fitness have always ruled the roost. It has gotten me out of some pretty deep holes, ended bad relationships, and basically it has been the filter through which all of my other interests have been distilled. So, I thought, no way...lol... there has to be a mechanism for this. It is a litmus test to a certain degree, no?
Consequently, the first second I heard about Sungazing...rather, saw the documentary 'Eat the Sun'... it clicked. I thought, EXACTLY. Reading about it, and other ppl's Blogs, the science of the Eye and Pineal Gland, Photo-receptor activity, etc., confirmed a physiological process I thought reasonable. Now off to collect some empirical data...lol.
Here we are, 70+ days in and I feel like I have just scratched the surface of a tremendous adventure. I deeply aspire to be a better friend and co-worker; to recognize when I am stepping in it b/c of past learned behaviors, so I can CHANGE the way I do business when it becomes a dance instead of a dialogue. You're morphing or your dying they say. I believe that Sungazing is a process that achieves just that, new movement.
'Someday I will sit under the tree like Buddha showed us, summon the past and future, and vanquish them both.' _*_
Happy Saturday ! ~ Elle
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Day 69 Epiph...
Okay, so, I realized over the last week b/c the Sun is rising so late..after 7:3o ish...that the normal hour window doesn't really apply. And that last month of 3 weeks of straight rain got me completely out of my 'zone', so to cheesily speak... That wasn't even a sentence I'm pretty sure. But I stand by it. : )
But here's the thing...I have never looked FORWARD to the trees losing their leaves before. :D What a revelation! The way the Sun is crossing the sky in the morning is excellent from my porch. I am actually so excited to notice for the first time how the Sun moves across my day. Let me state for the record that I live in a very old neighborhood, so the trees just overwhelm the sky. The past three years have birthed at least 12' of growth on all of the trees around my building, which is a smidgety-smidge unsettling. :| As were the swarm of flying red ants the other nite.. ahem.
Further signs of the Apocalypse: discovering a love of Winter..:P
Cheers! ~ Elle
But here's the thing...I have never looked FORWARD to the trees losing their leaves before. :D What a revelation! The way the Sun is crossing the sky in the morning is excellent from my porch. I am actually so excited to notice for the first time how the Sun moves across my day. Let me state for the record that I live in a very old neighborhood, so the trees just overwhelm the sky. The past three years have birthed at least 12' of growth on all of the trees around my building, which is a smidgety-smidge unsettling. :| As were the swarm of flying red ants the other nite.. ahem.
Further signs of the Apocalypse: discovering a love of Winter..:P
Cheers! ~ Elle
Saturday, October 1, 2011
Weather!! Day 59
Man! The weather has been no less than TRAGIC the whole month of Sept.! OY!
So naturally when the Sun came up yesterday, completely uninhibited, I was determined to get at least 15 minutes in. Which I was able to accomplish, no prob. I did, however, do them much later in the 'hour window' and lemme tell ya, it was intense! I have been catching the Sunrise literally as it comes up in my city so the amount of Sun or the quality, per se, has been quite different. I haven't been up to 35 min. from the start, so the type of Sunlight was really awesome.
I will say that the 'solar smudge' in my vision lasted all day. We had no sun at all this a.m. so I wasn't able to see if it would dissipate after another session. It's gone now. But I am definitely noticing the difference between getting 20 plus minutes in consistently, and going two weeks without any! I will say again that I wish that I had started this in the Spring...if only. Well regardless, I look forward to it everyday, and hopefully we will have some consistently sunny weather this month so I can continue to reap the benefits! :)
Ps. Dear October,
My dogs have gotten out 4 times in the last 7 days after being properly detained for 6 weeks. Can I PLEASE have another 6 weeks peace-of-mind?
Cheers ~ Elle
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Day 42 :D
Oh where to start! Well I will say that last week was overcast just about every day. I might have caught the sunrise once. But this week started out with the most beautiful cherry red sun rising up over the tennis courts next to my job! OH MY! Wonderful...lol. Since I had missed it for so long, I definitely picked up where I left off and then some...
I have noticed some really amazing things since I started Sungazing. First off, the trouble comes from having to STOP looking at it...:P I am lucky enough to be an early riser so I am always able to catch the sunrise from the second it peeks through the landscape. I find that where I live, that I am able to see the sun about 10 minutes after it has officially 'risen'. But I have no trouble looking at it for what ends up about 20 minutes. No its not the 10 seconds a day, but I definitely did practice that for the 3 weeks up till the time the weather got icky. But now I find the Sun is so soothing that I want to keep looking at it. If I didn't have to go back in to work, I feel like I could do another 15 minutes no problem. I don't know if that's just b/c of me, or b/c I can always catch the Sun at Sunrise, but it has had no ill effects on me whatsoever.
I have been feeling more energized, less hungry, more in 'control' of sorts, and generally just better! :D I have had some hormone related issues the past year or so and that has improved dramatically. God knows I would never make that up since I was ready to go on meds. to deal with it a couple months ago. How I never stumbled across Sungazing before now, bends my mind!
This has to be the best thing since a giant plow...lol, and I would highly recommend it to anyone who is in search of that ever elusive 'balance' in their lives. This seems to be some sort of anchor in life. Not that I am not trying to say that it is the same for everyone, obviously, but I can report that there is something significant to it for me. :)
Good luck! ~ Elle
I have noticed some really amazing things since I started Sungazing. First off, the trouble comes from having to STOP looking at it...:P I am lucky enough to be an early riser so I am always able to catch the sunrise from the second it peeks through the landscape. I find that where I live, that I am able to see the sun about 10 minutes after it has officially 'risen'. But I have no trouble looking at it for what ends up about 20 minutes. No its not the 10 seconds a day, but I definitely did practice that for the 3 weeks up till the time the weather got icky. But now I find the Sun is so soothing that I want to keep looking at it. If I didn't have to go back in to work, I feel like I could do another 15 minutes no problem. I don't know if that's just b/c of me, or b/c I can always catch the Sun at Sunrise, but it has had no ill effects on me whatsoever.
I have been feeling more energized, less hungry, more in 'control' of sorts, and generally just better! :D I have had some hormone related issues the past year or so and that has improved dramatically. God knows I would never make that up since I was ready to go on meds. to deal with it a couple months ago. How I never stumbled across Sungazing before now, bends my mind!
Good luck! ~ Elle
Saturday, August 6, 2011
Day 3
8/6/11
New perspective day...:)
This morning was partially cloudy, but I was determined to at least walk to my spot with the dogs to see if I could catch the sunrise peaking through the clouds. I felt soooo good yesterday I certainly didn't want to miss a day! Oh sweet motivation, how I value thee...hahaha. :P
So we made it to the park and I was pleasantly surprised to see several other people that were there to walk their dogs around the soccer fields track. Good for them I thought. But I planted myself on one of the skate board jumps and intended to wait. The neighborhood I live in has a killer skate board park for the kids, a dog park, and pretty much anything a bedroom community has...but we are much closer to the city. It's a great place to live!
Eventually the sun did break through and even though it was only my 30s day, I let myself gaze as long as the sun moved through this one little opening. I counted out about 70s and it was gone. I had no extra 'spot' in my vision as I walked home, smiling. It felt even better than day 2 and I scolded myself for discovering this so late in the year. Clearly, the weather would only be getting worse, and who knows how much sunrise we would get through the winter...... BUT, I happily reminded myself..lol, I did discover it, and its impact has been straight up terrific so far!
I have had NO issue at all looking directly into it, and I have found that I no longer want to wear sunglasses or a hat when I am out in the sun. Granted, I am not working in a field all day! But for the hour or so I am outside the sun has turned from an 'enemy' to an advocate..:D woot! Lucky me!
Hope you're having a fantastical day yourself!
~ Elle
New perspective day...:)
This morning was partially cloudy, but I was determined to at least walk to my spot with the dogs to see if I could catch the sunrise peaking through the clouds. I felt soooo good yesterday I certainly didn't want to miss a day! Oh sweet motivation, how I value thee...hahaha. :P
So we made it to the park and I was pleasantly surprised to see several other people that were there to walk their dogs around the soccer fields track. Good for them I thought. But I planted myself on one of the skate board jumps and intended to wait. The neighborhood I live in has a killer skate board park for the kids, a dog park, and pretty much anything a bedroom community has...but we are much closer to the city. It's a great place to live!
Eventually the sun did break through and even though it was only my 30s day, I let myself gaze as long as the sun moved through this one little opening. I counted out about 70s and it was gone. I had no extra 'spot' in my vision as I walked home, smiling. It felt even better than day 2 and I scolded myself for discovering this so late in the year. Clearly, the weather would only be getting worse, and who knows how much sunrise we would get through the winter...... BUT, I happily reminded myself..lol, I did discover it, and its impact has been straight up terrific so far!
I have had NO issue at all looking directly into it, and I have found that I no longer want to wear sunglasses or a hat when I am out in the sun. Granted, I am not working in a field all day! But for the hour or so I am outside the sun has turned from an 'enemy' to an advocate..:D woot! Lucky me!
Hope you're having a fantastical day yourself!
~ Elle
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